My spiritual journey
I was always aware of things that are unseen. I could sense when there was something there, that feeling you get when you’re being watched or when you know you’re not alone. My mother was dismissive and would tell me “oh you’ve been watching scary movies”, etc. I remember being completely terrified and I would have the blankets over me (because we all know blanks are ghost-armor!). I knew exactly where the energies were around me.
When I was still in elementary school I thought I might find solace at church. I was seeking a spiritual connection, I assumed that any unseen energies must be malevolent. I thought if I had a good relationship with God I would be safe. I got my family to start going to church with me as well.
In my teenage years I was so terrified of the energies around me I would never want to be home alone. I would open my curtains and turn on all the lights in the house. I would rather the neighbors look inside than for me to be alone with whatever it was in there with me.
As a young adult I became very Christian, but not the useful kind of Christian. I was so Christian I was no worldly good. I went to a charismatic church and I casted those demons out left and right! It was here that I learned my spiritual strength, I knew that I did not have to allow any energies around me if I felt uncomfortable. I also knew that my angels and Jesus and ‘God’ were close by and that I could call on them anytime. I felt the connection to source strongly, attributing this as the “Holy Spirit”.
Somewhere around the early 2000’s I started reading the Dan Brown books. Kind of funny now to look back and think that Dan Brown inspired an awakening with the Davinci Code book. After this I started devouring anything I could get my hands on that would give me a link to ancient history that was true. I was so angry and disillusioned that the Bible had been twisted by scared misogynistic spiritual and government leaders to gain domination and conformity of the masses.
In my quest for the truth, I came across the study of intention. I started reading books like the intention experiment, I even purchased them for everybody for their birthdays that year. I wanted to stand on the top of the mountain and scream “WE’VE BEEN LIED TO!”. At some point I came across Dr. Wayne Dyer‘s books and of course read every single word he’s ever written that I could find. This put me into a really good place, and lead me onto other spiritual guru‘s.
And during this time I had started to go back to college and I was taking an eastern philosophy through yoga class. My teacher, Annalisa Cunningham was the sweetest soul. I was introduced to Reiki in this class, and felt a strong pull towards learning everything I could about energy healing. Because I was so so interested in it, I was kind of afraid to admit it, although looking back now I’m not exactly sure why.
During this time I was so busy with work and family that I neglected my usual spiritual practices. I don’t know exactly when it started but at some point I realized I wasn’t even meditating anymore and I could not remember the last time I did a yoga pose. Instead of reading inspirational books to grow spiritually I would Netflix or binge listen to fictional audiobooks when I did not have work or schoolwork.
After moving to a new house that seemed to have an active energetic connection, I was reacquainted with that eerie feeling that somebody is with me. At the same time my grandson who was four at the time was talking incessantly about his past lives. He said things about this since before he could clearly communicate and we never dismissed them, but we also didn’t look too much into them. He talked about it so much that I knew he was trying to get a message through, I knew that his little soul needed some type of soothing. This is where my madness began, I read every single past life account I could find, Ian Stevenson and the like. I joined Ainslie Macleod’s soul world community and read all of his books as well.
By now I had a clear understanding of reincarnation and past lives, and had a good ability to get information from regressions. At some point however, I started thinking OK… So I was this guy in a previous life, but how does that matter now? Then I came across accounts of life between life regressions, and I read everything! While I was studying this, I started hearing about incarnations from otherworldly places. I didn’t know what to think about this at first. I was devouring audiobooks and podcasts, trying to get all the information I could. The Robert Monroe books, Edgar Casey, Dolores Cannon, Richard Martini, Michael Newton, and other Newton institute graduate’s books gave me a pragmatic explanation of interplanetary species and the origins of humanity. I worked with Linda Backman to gain a more comprehensive understanding of my own soul origin and purpose.
Through all this learning and discovery, Jesus had been brought back into my peripheral from several modalities. Not in a religious sense, but in a spiritual sense. I then started to understand that even as a child I was seeking that relationship, that relationship with a soul family member that man had dietized.
